September 22nd, 2012 - 11:12 AM
I donít want to be Jane Fonda.
On Wednesday, I had a little meltdown. And so I called my great and beautiful friend, Micah in San Francisco. It had been a long time since we had talked. He told me, that many years ago, a close friend of his mothers told her, ďWhy you gotta be Jane Fonda.Ē He was referring to this idea of always having to save the world. I started laughing; the truth of it hit the spot.
Though I havenít been an activist, I carry the weight of the world on my back. Concerned about goodness and Ďalwaysí doing the right thing down to how I even think about everything. Even my intentions have to be in alignment with the greater good. Itís impossible.
The next morning and still today, Iím thinking about this phrase. It makes me laugh. 'Why you gotta be Jane Fonda." Itís one of those things that Iíll take with me throughout the rest of my life. Itís a reminder to NOT take life too seriously, seriously.
After all, I donít want to be Jane Fonda. Weíll maybe I do, the Ďnowí and improved version of her. I find her honesty about life, aging, and her zest for life inspiring.
The piece here is titled, ďItís Gay World After All.Ē Itís said Disneyland is the happiest place on earth. Maybe dreams can come true and happiness can come back to me after all.