San Tan Valley, AZ
The Story Of Me
Drawing - Charcoal & Pastels On White Paper
From childhood I was always told to do as your told, act your age, keep quiet. I always felt different & found it hard to fit in. I didn't know my place, or how to be me. I had to always try to please my parents & struggled to make a C. I was tormented & beaten up as a little girl because I dressed in rags as we were poor. I was told by my parents that I had to be in the band. I had to be in the band because my sister & all my cousins were in the band. They were all smart making straight A's & musically gifted, always winning awards, while I faked my way through from 1st grade to 11th grade never uttering a note from my dreaded clarinet that I hated with a passion. My senior year, I have had it! I was tired of trying to please everyone everyday of my life. I told my parents I refused to take band my last year of high school. They were upset, but I stood my ground. I wanted to take a class that I wanted. That would be Art
Class. The little girl in this picture is my very 1st drawing I had done. I had redrawn her. (the original drawing is entitled high school senior year art class 1st drawing) The others in the class thought it was the greatest drawing. For once I felt I found myself & was happy with myself for something. I belonged, I fit in... Soon after I went to art school. I did very well & was one of the only few in my class to pass my portfolio review. Peopled loved my work. Again, I felt I found myself, I now belong, I fit in. Right after graduation I got my 1st art related job with Picture Pages with Bill Cosby! I was excited & proud. They loved my work, I found myself, I fit in. But it wasnt enough money, rent was due & bills were to be paid. And so I spent over 20 years again for other people. Meaningless jobs just to pay bills & living my life again for others. So here I am again, the rebel again has had enough, time is
almost up. I have had enough & decided to ressurect my art once again, no more meaningless jobs to pay bills & no more living for others happiness while I fade away. This is me the artist. This is my life, my heart, & my soul on paper. It took me over 20 years to go full circle & to find my place on earth once again. The butterfly represents me & the changes & the cycles & the transformations we go through. From birth, to the moment where you let go & become yourself. Going full circle, this is me, I belong, I fit in, I dance alone...
September 29th, 2012
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