Anyone else hear ever destroy your own art out of anger or frustration?
I had been working on a piece, an oil painting, it had about 10-13 hours invested in it and about 2 weeks of drying time, I am the one that screwed it up and once I realised I couldn't even paint over it and start over i mopped it with a coat of thick titanium white, took it to the back yard and beat it like satan himself, busted frameing, ripped, torn and still crumpled up in the back yard collecting due .......
the sense of loss is devistating, and I'm really struggling with what happened yesterday
Daniel.. Beating on Steel Sculptures is Likely to harm me instead, so I refrain...The other part of that is that I can cut off the offending portion and start over where I left off... A Gun might prove extremely harmful to who knows who in my case!
Sorry to hear about your painting's demise...How much do you want for it??....LOL
Not alone I had a meltdown moment... an argument over my photography and how much time I was spending with it with a signifigant other. In my anger I destroyed a 20 X 30 beautiful print of one of my bird photos made by crane paper for me as payment for using my image in an art show. Not something I can ever get back and I still regret it :(
I've been there before Daniel, I hate that feeling. At the time it feels really good to get the frustration out, but then afterwards, it really feels crappy, because you know that all your hard work was wasted :( chin up, it will get better and you will create something new!!
I know what you mean I still feel a loss sometimes over what I destroyed but Shana is right chin up and start creating something new. Maybe you can paint your frustration and that will be a work of art in itself. Happy creating.
Dear Daniel..sorry to hear that..but we have all been there...it does leave you feeling upset, I pulled a pastel off my board the other week out of frustration and it ripped down the side...hours of work wasted...chin up though you have some great work!!
Daniel, I used to draw on newsprint because that's what I was taught to use for preliminary sketching. Well, we all know how well newsprint holds up, and when you end up with a finished drawing on newsprint, what do you do with it? Fortunately, a couple of the ones I liked the best fit in my scanner so now they are on my computer where they won't deteriorate. But we've all been there....get almost done with something then introduce and element into the image that simply doesn't work. It's frustrating. Take a deep breath.
Ann, not sure it will make much of a collage due to all the white paint I slapped on it before taking the stick to it lol, but this thread has helped for whatever reason and I do like the deconstruction idea, you¡¦re the second to mention it ƒº
Katie, I hope you were at least able to salvage some of it, I obviously don¡¦t handle my mistakes well, I¡¦ve never really been one to try and turn a mistake into something useable, if it doesn¡¦t match my vision I feel like it¡¦s a failure, I don¡¦t do accidental success ¡K.. I also don¡¦t do pastels either lol for those same reasons lol
Mary, I made the news print mistake too, I use my left over news print as a drop cloth now lol
I was worried this thread would turn into a woe is me, which would not have helped the least, but instead this thread did indeed allow me to see past this and I appreciate everyones responses, even those that got pm’d
Tony, once I’ve satisfied my hunger to recreate and get past this piece I do plan on doing one in black to go with it …..
At least you got the satisfaction of beating your artwork into submission.
When I get frustrated with one of my digital pieces, there isn't anything to beat, bend or break. I hit delete and it's over. No fun at all.
You're not alone. I'm sure John Cleese did something like that to his Austin 1100 car (beating it with a stick), but apart from that I remember reading about an artist whose work had been slighted in the past (he'd given a painting to a friend who'd binned it I think). Ever after that, with every painting that he completed, he immediately destroyed it. And he was quite a good painter I believe.
Usually canvas is more money...but good brushes aren't cheap.
There are a few more options. Like making it cease to exist, like I do.
Or going to exercise and release that pent up anger.
There's also the glass of red wine route and the
turn on you favorite song and scream it at the top of your lungs option.
I have been feeling this way about taking a photo of my newest painting today, ugh I just want to smash the crap out of my camera, I cannot seem to get a good enough photo!! Plus, I have a cold right now, and am dizzy and light headed so it's making it really hard to concentrate!! Oh well I guess I will just have to only have it up for small prints for now, and try again tomorrow.
I had to crop out part of the darn photo because of blur, and the color still isn't right!! And I still see a bit of a glare. I have been trying all day, to get the darn photo, and it is just not working no matter what I do!!!
You are right, brushes aren't cheap, and I have been known to break a couple in half, canvas is more costly, I have yet to smash one of those, but I have had to paint over a few. I have also done the whole-turn it into an abstract route, which doesn't usually work as well for me.
You might be surprised that you and I are in the same boat on this one.
I would say that over half the paintings that I ever did could not have evolved as they did without intense frustration.
I am talking about throwing paint-loaded brushes across the room, screaming at the canvas, trashing a 60-hour investment into the freezing cold 3AM night, fishing a first-failed attempt out of the garbage and trying to save it, beating my fist on a drawing, storming out of the room and going for a long walk.
And, by nature, I am a quiet person in real life, believe it or not.
I'm not uprised Robert, I too am a quiet person :)
Carmen, it seems the easier something is the more I attempt to overcomplicate it, your right, a refresher coarse might be quite refreshing, unfortunately thats not what caused this, I knew exactly what i was doing whehile I was doing at lol. I find it interesting that you painted before drawing, pencil for me is like that one blanket you can't seem to throw out, no matter how boring I find it, I still do it .....
Shooting to vent rage is building a bad habit. However, I find that splitting firewood with a sledgehammer, wedges and maul can be very therapeutic. And instead of destroying perfectly good overpaintable canvas and stretchers, you get improved circulation, warmth, and the constructive use of momentum to create firewood for autumn and winter use. It's still to hot, though. Nobody splits wood in the summer. It's great to do it in the late fall when it's crispy cool.
A few years ago, I got fed-up with a painting, and threw it down the basement stairs. I went down the stairs, picked it up, and propped it against the wall. It stayed right there, for almost a year, but once in a while, I'd take a look at it. Then one day, I put it on the eisel, and started working on it again. I used to enter a local art show, for a number of years,never winning anything. The piece that I threw down the steps won a "Merit Award", at that show..
Yup love that movie. :o) Ok here is something that will help with fustration.
1. Have dry spagetti noodles close by.
2. Break them and just throw it at your painting.
3. If you really want to have fun cook those noodles ahead of time.
4. Throw on painting and up the ceiling.
You ask why up the ceiling? When you finally get past the rage then you will have something to laugh about when it lands of your head or face. :o)
Remember don't take art so serious. Remember why you do art.
Yes I have destroyed work that was not going to plan. One in particular 4 x 4 foot portrait in tempera, about 3 days work. I stopped as it was not right and painting over it is not an option so I cut it off the stretch and crumpled it up to get rid of frustration. I noticed that the egg tempera did not become damaged I took it out back and hung it on the cloth line and literally beat the crap out of it with a broom, the paint surface did crack but that was all, I then took a garden hose and at full blast hit the paint up close and again beat it with a broom. End conclusion, my egg tempera sticks like... to a blanket, it does not come off. Good to know. So my frustration turned into a useful experiment. I started on a new canvas and painted it again, this time it painted how I wanted it to.
I feel your frustration on that Mario, at least you did get something out of it though :)
those are great suggestions Minnie and I plan to try them at least once, especially the precooked noodles lol, I don't tend to lash out, despite how this thread may make me seem lol, my destruction of this painting was quite calculated, I didnt want to look at another painting and see the horror that it was covering up ... lol