Chrome Bird

Look at this chrome beauty~!! Isn't she just beautiful? It amazes me. I mean, I know that we human beings are incredible creatures but still, it... more

by Tgchan

Title

Chrome Bird

Artist

Tgchan

Medium

Photograph

Description

Look at this chrome beauty~!! Isn't she just beautiful? It amazes me. I mean, I know that we human beings are incredible creatures but still, it blows my mind when I see creations like that. A beautiful chromium mechanical bird. This plane and I; we were meant to meet each other. I am sure of it now, there’s no denying that. This is just perfect on so many levels... I don't even know where to begin. I look at it and I cannot stop admiring it. The photograph, I mean the photograph... It is just whoa... The weather, grass, clouds, I mean everything has just come together to create this stunning piece of reality just to be captured. I am honestly honoured to be the one who has been chosen to immortalise that fragment of a moment. Thank you for appreciating and having faith in me that I am capable and worthy enough to share it with the world. I would also like to thank my ex and maybe future again (not sure yet) girlfriend who I believe is quite severely responsible for my today's euphoric state of mind which is letting me to spread my writing and thinking creativity. Thank you, Tes. Okay, since we are already here. I would also like to THANK my Family; especially my Mother, Father and Brother who are making me so comfortable with my weirdness, laziness and ill mind in general. Thank you so much for making me so comfortable and relaxed about everything... If not for your continuous support I wouldn't be able to do what I can and am doing now... The feeling of security is just amazing... You will never know how I feel, but I want you to know how amazingly grateful I am for all of this. I LOVE YOU. Okay, that previous part should be somewhere at the end of this but... let's just go with the flow shall we :) ? Look at those clouds!!! That beautiful green grass which is partially giving amazing green cast on the underbelly of chrome plane. It is just whoa woah whoaaaaaaaa sick, isn't it!? My words fly yuppie I want to be like that as often as I can... Happy, creative, full of live and energy... I want to give my love to everyone I want to make others happy and to feel so amazing like I do at the moment. Please, give me the power to spread it across the world... You will not be disappointed in me... There's so much in me... I want the world to know... Going back to the photograph again... It just is. It just is incredibly amazing. It looks and feels like alive capture of that moment. I look at it and I almost feel I am there again. Is it really that good? Am I making it up? Is my euphoric mind creating something that isn't real? The combination of emotions from yesterday (girlfriend) and feeding sleep-deprived brain with amazing 12h sleep that has triggered this euphoric bonanza... Perhaps... Perhaps it doesn't even matter... Going back to the plane...sigh... Clouds, blue sky, green grass, warm light, details, colours, planes are cool as fck too, yea... It is sick ass photograph. Good job Chan. Even if it really sucks, and you are feeling like that about it only now... well it is still a good job for this particular moment. Oh my god... I want to write... I shouldn't finish now... This state is not temporary, I know that already... It lasts only for a brief moment. Okay, so what should I write about? Fck... I have to practise my guitar... I am hungry too... Okay, maybe I can write some more, something smart, meaningful. Fck I am good at it, the writing I mean. My Father used to write some poems for my Mum and I bet this is his thing going on in me. I should write a book, but I am so lazy... so depressed most of the time + books are just meh... I mean they are cool, but I would rather write lyrics to some heavy ass songs and shout it later on while singing on concerts... but yea... I don't know... Damn... I am talking with myself, but fck it feels good. It is just like bouncing my mind against a mirror. Finally I got someone who can fully understand me and damn Chan you are a good friend. You know what? I think I would love to have you as my invisible friend. You know, just like Elliot from Mr. Robot (2015) (TV Series) had. Can my mind create you? Is it capable of doing it? I really would love that... like REALLLYYYYY REALLY want you in my life. We could do so many things together... Shit... I am not writing about the photograph, but fck it. It is cool as fck, let's leave it there. I wonder how much text I can write here in this description box, hmm? Am I still euphoric? I don't know, I still write things, and I still talk with my mind, so I think we are still euphoric TGC. No, Chan, it sounds better; even though it sounds more like I am talking with my childhood idol Jackie Chan, but you are TGCHAN, so Chan is you. WTf am I talking about. Okay, I think I can't write anything smart any more... Hmm... Let me think. Damn, this is quite incredible... Weird but incredible. I am writing exactly what I am thinking. WTF is that shit? Is that a some kind of genre? Is there anyone like me? Is there anyone in the world who is writing exactly what is thinking? It feels... right... It feels right, actually. And I just thought about proofreading that thing and I thought omfg I don't want to correct any mistakes and everything hahaha omfg Chan, let's just leave it here and go eat something, then we will practice some guitar and vuala, you are free. You can play games, talk with your ex/future girlfriend, other people, watch some movie etc. Yea, let's finish it here. I don't want to type what I am thinking, which is nothing at the moment, to the very morning of the next day. Thank you for reading. I really believe something great can evolve from this sick mind of mine. So yea, please follow me on fb, insta and anything else. You people can make me great, but only you. I can be great to myself, but I will never reach the level I want without the rest of the world. So let's do this together. Peace out. /tgchan // OH, one more thought, I am leaving this just as is. I have proofread it a couple of times before I have started talking/writing with my own mind so yea... Good bye, until next time. Ciao! Fck... I want to write some more... omfg... I am addicted to writing what I am thinking... Fck off Chan... omfg stop it!!!@!@ No, No, no no no You are hungry, need to practice guitar and play some games on ps4, and it's 21:10 already. omfg you have not put any tags to this photograph yet!@!@ Fck off and get to work. Do tags. Upload photograph, eat, play guitar, play games, talk with ex/future girlfriend and gtfo to sleep. SHUT YOUR BRAIN. Should I know? Maybe this is something most amazing about me and I want to shut it off? Am I doing the right thing? Okay, if it is the beginning of something great and amazing, surely it will come back and stay longer with me. I cannot kill it just like that, with stopping writing, right? I have just thought that writing this is exactly the speed of my comfortable thinking. I feel like this is the right speed of my thoughts, every single word I am typing now is just nice omgh Hmmm how many words per minute am I doing now? 2/sec or maybe 3/sec is the speed of my mind which feels nice and I can fluently communicate with my own brain . This is the tip how I can replay it again and be able to talk with myself again/ No time for editing, proofreading and deep thoughts. Everything flows, like water, now force needed... Am I medditating? Is my brain growing big now? Will I be famous? I want to be rich I want to live the life I want with my girfldiend (don't know which one yet, maybe the ex/future one) OMFG this is weird. I need to stop it. I would love to see people's faces when they read it. It is real. I am wiring exactly every single thought I am thinking right now and it is sick amazing I love it. I want to do it again. Okay fck it let's try and finish that work and do something else. Bye Chan. Hopefully I can talk to / write to you again. Please don't go. I want you in my life. Be my Mr Robot. This is rally end. I am moving a page up and will be working on tags. I will check the usual blanks and hit submit and this piece will be finished. No more wiring / talking with myself for now. By Chan/ it was really nice to finally meet you. My inner self, myself. You are great Chan. Blow out on the whole world. You can do it. We will do it~~!~! Fck off now. go already bye buye byube omfg i cannot stop really... focus... focus on something else I know when it has started. I didn't want to think so much while hoovering because I was spending 3-5x more time on the same spot, stuck in my mind instead of finishing the work quickly and make something more interesting and I have started talking to myself something like: " focus on this, you are doing this, look how well you are hoovering this sport you are good at it " etc/ etc etc, I think this was the start of it. Not sure... So much thoughts I don't want to stop this state... it is so deep. It feels almost like that one time you have managed to meditate or at least you thought you have experienced it. Have I accessed deeper kinds of brain zones/? Kruder & Dorfmeister - Gone this is the music I am listening to now. It is 21:24 / 2017-08-05 and I am feeling my brain is getting swelled. I want to stop and do something else now... I've asked my ex/future gf to call me as soon as she can. Maybe a phone call can end this. This is I think one of the largest single post I have ever made. Okay I don't even want to stop to correct mistakes. I don't want to interrupt this fluent think/write combination that is going on in my brain right now. Will I ever read this? I want to, but not alone. I will read it with a girlfriend. Yea, I want to read it with my girlfriend so we can laugh and analyse it together. Would be nice. Okay Chan, I am going up to write some tags, please let me and don't interrupt with it. Remember what you have been doing while hoovering. Keep saying and repeating "Foucus on this What? This over here, look what you are doing. Focus on this, this is what you do now. You have to focus on this so you don't drown in own thoughts " Yes, I will. But I just thought that I am acting like a real psycho now. I really can type with you you know? Omfg I think this is real? If any publisher is reading it, please give me a lot of money so I can do this for living. I want to be me. And live large life. Fck this is something I am starting to be ashamed of. Tags. Focus on tags Chan. Focus on tags you still have got plenty to do tags focus plane grass clouds beautiful weather go and write this down in tags. okay Chan let's try this. Bye for now. Today maybe but please come back when Tes will call you I want you to meet her. She is the closest none-family person I know now. See you later Chan. Bye . Bye TG. Okay... I have put 2-7 tags in the tag box but I thought about my ex/future girlfriend and I wrote to her that I want her to listen to me, and see if it thing is noticeable in normal speech with her. I wonder if she can notice something is off with me at the moment. I wrote her about it, but she doesn't know what to expect, me neither. I need to stay weird. I need to be weird if I want to explore this deeper. I want to. It is is amazingly interesting from psychological point of view and maybe not only from it. It feels a bit like lucid dream. I have never tried it before, but I have controlled my own consciousness a couple of times in my dreams. I cannot stop thinking that this music is crucial ingredient to this state: Kruder & Dorfmeister - Gone I have looped it. I don't want to stop it. But now I know it is not crucial. I have felt similar state before when I was writing something deep. I just helps me to focus my thoughts. And helps everything to flow better. My ex/future girlfriend will think I am mad, but it doesn't matter. She knows I am weird. I think she's okay with it. Just now so much with the rest of loser-me. Omfg she really takes her time... and I cannot stop writing what I am thinking. I don't want to. The music is so fcking good. She told me she was doing something an she needs to finish it. But I have explained her that I am afraid this state of weird self talking consciousness may be over anytime soon. She is being quite ignorant and distant about. She doesn't care about me. No wonder she doesn't want to sacrifice what she is currently doing. Oh well... wow emptiness. I had a 1sec thought emptiness then I thought about it and had to write it down. Cool... another one wtf. I think my brain is getting tired thinking on 200%... I really want to have split personality. Just another one. A cool amazing full 100% different me. So we can complete each other. OMFG I KNOW THIS SHIT IS REAL and it looks exactly like from The Shining (1980) by Stanley Kubrick~!~!~!~That dude Jack Torrance played by Jack Nicholson was doing exactly the same thing. He was narrating reality that he was later on making real. Could watching Matrix trilogy with my ex/future girlfriend yesterday have something to do? Perhaps. I was thinking that this state may only exist while I write in English, which is my second language, but then I realised it still works, this state of mind when I was writing to my ex/future girlfriend. Omfg... call already... I want it to stop... Maybe you can say something that will stop it. I need to channel my thoughts. I need to pee lol lmao xD omfg I am so tired with all this thinking/writing already. I will close my eyes maybe and just chilled to music, but no I won't do it. This writing/thinking thingy is some kind of hypnotising method I think. I am self-hypnotising myself with it. I think write and read what I write and I write what I am thinking wtf wadajdasndajsdnasjdnajdna I am thinking what I am writing or is it other way around? It felt for a seconds like I was trapped in this quantum think. I don't even know what does quantum word means, but it sounds cool ahhahaha omfg rest rest rest I need a rest... Maybe I will just write slower... slower. s l o w e r okay it works a bit... s . l . o . w . e . r. Nah it is waste of time. Going back to tags.... maybe ex/future girlfriend will call any time now. Her name is Tes by the way. She is really lost too, but totally differently from me. I really would like to help her, but I need to help myself first. I mean I can help her little by little and by that help also myself but I would love to help her big time like change her whole life big time kind of way, but I am so small... not rich enough... Too many things I want to do with her, give her etc. but I am so unsecured etc. Fck money Chan. You've got enought to give her most of the things you want. You are just a fcking skimp. Yea, but only partially. You know that I am afraid of giving it all out to the wrong kind of person, This is what majorly blocks me. True. I believe you. Let's leave it there, you don't want to find out how big of a low life you are. oh fck you Chan lol You know it is true you fck. We know... but it would be nice if you could risk some more and give her something to start things going to right direction. I want to. You can see it just as clearly as I can. We are both in the same boat. FCKING LITERALLY lol how hilarious. omfg girl where are you call meeeeeeeeeee now. Okay... Tags... let's do tags/ she's will call you any moment now. going up to do the tags. Wait for me, please. Thank you. Fck.. I am back, because what if tags will channel your mind to another thing and kill this state? Oh well you've got this as proof that it was real. Even if the state will disappear you will still have this writing as the proof of something utterly weird and cool at the same time. Wow Chan, you are almost as cool as Elliot from Mr. Robot (2015) (TV Series). Maybe girls will go crazy about you like they do about him lol. But what for like you need only 1 girl to love anyway. True that. Respect for that Chan. Wait a fckign second who is Chan and who is TG? Lmao okay TG is the normal me, you know the person who is living its miserable life and you Chan you are my friend, alter ego, that split personality thing. Deal? Deal. Okay, so how can we take over the world Chan? I think we should start talking more often. Much much more often. So we can communicate better, and develop this state to the new levels. Just checked the fb communicator she went offline. She wants to cut herself off from me to focus and finish her work. I wonder what is she doing. Probably finishing the painting she was telling me about earlier. I could always finish it (I think so) by going downstairs to my parents and talk a little. Their typical normal life thinking and being would totally kill this state hahahaha That's quite rude and disrespectful Chan or TG or whoever thought about it lol. But yea. You love them. We all know about that little fact so it is all cool and shit. I will start talking to myself, like a lot. It is just amazing. I will do it outside this description box, you know in normal life because developing mental illness is so cool nowadays lol So I will create just that. Of course there are more benefits to it as well. You will finally have a buddy for everything. You long camera walks, watching films, etc. But you won't be able to fck yourself... hmm theoretically I could but that just doesn't cut for me. Okay, she still is not calling. Let's try and go back up to put in some tags. Wait for me here, Chan. Okay. Do it quickly and get back to me. Yes, just like that. Don't forget about saving what we are doing here, every few seconds. Remember what happened when you started writing this description. Yea, I remember. I fcking cliked on that little firefox x which turned off my cart... I raged so much for a moment. Maybe this was the reason of our split? That would be weak-ass reason for it lmao. You or we didn't even write so much just a few sentences. We could write almost everything back again from our amazing memory... omfg girl come one... you ignorance towards me is killing me... You know what Chan? I or we, could really use amazing proper native British English skills, could you bring that up with your my second personality? I bet there are shitload of other things I could think of but that could help us communicate better as I prefer English for that. It's cool and it helps me to separate minds, perhaps. She definitely don't give any fcks about you, TG. Me Chan or whatever whoever... Fck... Who actually fcks her and cares about her? Are you fcking her and I am the one who cares about her? Noh. We do those things together. Okay. That's somehow comforting. I wouldn't like it the other way. You know seperating pure pleasures from something greater like caring about her. Yea, that would suck. But I am glad we are on the same page, and that particular thing, we're doing together. Actually I think, we cannot seperate those things. At least, not just yet. Fck shit mothercker. We're hungry and she is doing fck knows what... Why do we even bother... Maybe she is having amazing creativity too TG/Chan(I don't know who is talking to who most of the time, not without thinking deeper what is more suitable for who, but fck it), so don't be so ignorant just as she probably is lol. No she's not... She's just complicated and you still don't understand her. Yea, keep repeating that to yourself lmao. Okay, tough guy, you've just sent her SMS that we are talking about her more and more. Maybe that will work. She will probably think something like: "Fck him and his weird ass" lmao. I am afraid you might be right, Chan. See that I know is definitely you. You are more direct, rude etc. but don't take this as a bad thing. I/we need that. Yea, Save it, your work. omfg she called. Bye Chan. gl TG. It was a long phone call, not as long as we used to talk, but it was amazing. She's amazing. I will leave it here, because I don't want to talk with myself to the very morning. I am going to eat, practice guitar, play some games on my ps4 and finally go sleep. I will talk to you soon, Chan. We will do great things together. Good night. 23:41 tags tags tags now ;p and the food is heating too. Last checks, without proofreading (might have killed me or would have to spend 6 days or so fixing things) and hitting submit button. My mind is calm now. I think I am alone already. Chan is sleeping. So, TG is saying thank you and good night.

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August 25th, 2017